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  • Wannabe Lexa Kom Trikru

    Wannabe Lexa Kom Trikru

    So for my 30th bday, I finally decided to get my dream tattoo which is the back tattoo of Lexa from the TV series “The 100”.

    She is one of my favorite TV series character and the show meant a lot to me years ago.

    My tattoo artist Kibin Black was referred by my friend Kendra. I was nervous at first because the tattoo will cover my whole spine, but thankful I got this piece inked on my back.

    Here is the design of my tattoo:

    There is no verified or official information on what the tattoo really means but according to The 100 fans, the top part is the arc while the middle part is the spaceship coming down and the bottom is the polls. You will only understand this if you watched the show hahaha! There was also other people that claims it represent the milky way, galaxy, planets and people falling down from the sky which I myself believe it than the first explanation I stated.

    This is my first big tattoo after I got my last two tiny tattoos. The session took more or less two hours and I needed a few minutes break as the lining or tracing hurt the most. The shading/coloring part was the best part of the session as it feels like a massage when the multiple needles hit my skin.

    I’m turning 31 soon (May 7 – send gift!) , I still don’t have any idea on what will be my next tattoo. A Keith Haring or Basquiat piece maybe.

    Here is a picture of my tattoo:

    Lexa Kom Trikru Tattoo

     

  • 2022: Tough Start

    2022: Tough Start

    Hi self, welcome back to blogging? Hope I don’t annoy you so much as I only pick up writing when I feel empty at everything.

    I turned 30 last year and they were absolutely correct about being 30. It’s gonna be flirty and thriving. Oh well, I’m only on the thriving part, and it’s just February hahaha

    2021 was such a year for me, I was so grateful amidst the pandemic. Work is overflowing and it pays well. A lot of learnings and days on the beach, countless cups of iced or hot coffee, multiple restaurant visits, non-stop zoom meetings, been drunk twice, got 2 kittens, new apartment, managed to pay all debts, new investment, paid life insurance, new team, spent the holidays with my family, bought a lot of unnecessary stuff and at the end of the day, I still weigh 80kgs hahahahaha FUCK my life right now.

    Now onto the second month of 2022, I think I’m not even close to thriving. It feels like dying hahahaha it’s like back to zero sisters.

    Currently having a coffee in a cafe while typing this shit. Yeng Constantino shouting in my ear “mabuti pa ang mag-isa”, not today Yeng. We do not need that kind of energy today.

    As much as I want to have positive takes for 2022, it shoots me right in the foot. I was blindsided, I think it’s karma. I remember what my boss said to me “Jhelline if something seems to be unsolvable then it’s not a problem, it is a fact, truth, or reality. It is what it is Jhel.”

    So for 2022, we are taking a step back and breathing more than once to make sure this is what we want. Cue in “Scared of Happy” by Fifth Harmony. I do really hope, for 2022 I will thrive, survive and be happy.

    Excuse the featured photo in this post, it’s a dirty cup of coffee but she tastes good ma’am. Until the next blog self… I just realized now that I have so much thing I wanna write and share to myself.

     

     

  • Finally I Got Tattoos

    Finally I Got Tattoos

    Hi self! I finally had the time for my blog, wanting to update my life journal but life happened as usual. Just like any other post, this is more likely to be a dump post, I just want to share that I got my first tattoos last March 10, 2020. I always wanted to get tattoos but I don’t know where, because I don’t know any artist and Im scared ahaha. As you all know, I worked at a cafe and one day one of our regulars told me she got tattoos from one of the local artist here in Cebu. I talked to her and long story short, she referred me to her artist and I impulsively book the moment she gave me the instagram account.

    I got two tattoos in one session, the first one is “happiness” and I think I don’t have to explain myself on this. Lastly, I got a Mickey Mouse icon just because I love him and you can’t argue with me on that haha. I both have them on my wrists, honestly I placed the “happiness” word on my left wrist because I want to remind myself that happiness will always be my life goal. It will also remind me to not cut myself which I attempted these past few months due to a lot of reasons. That statement is somewhat contradicting to my previous blog posts, I was not suicidal at all but I was overworked and been drowned with a lot of self doubt and life questions that sometimes its too overwhelming. DEEP.

    The mickey mouse tattoo was supposedly small, but I was excited during the tattoo session and decided to have it bigger just because I love him that much.

    Overall, I was happy that I got tattoos and I want more… By the way, I got my tattoos at Redeemed Tattoos and my artist is “Jello” (@jello_t) .

    If you are curious if its painful, it is but I cant say too much because I only got small ones.

     

     

     

  • LIFE UPDATE: Outsider

    LIFE UPDATE: Outsider

    It was the 5th of May this year when I landed in Cebu to celebrate my 28th birthday. Initially, I planned to stay here for 2 months and fly to Zamboanga after to visit a friend. Seven months after, here I am still in Cebu renting a room while doing freelance work and making coffee during Thursdays through Saturdays.

    Its already December and yet I still don’t have any plans, everything right now feels temporary. I might be in another city next month or probably still here.

    I don’t actually feel like I belong anywhere, I left Tarlac because I think there is more for me outside of that city. I stayed here in Cebu because I thought it would be exciting for me to be in a new city and start a new life I guess.

    But I cant still speak in Bisaya and my english is not that great either. The only Bisaya words I know are dili, lakaw-lakaw, maoy, bugnaw, gamay, tiil, iring and lami.

    This all sound so cliche, but what do you expect from me? Im not special or interesting. I dont really know as well why Im writing this post but Im still gonna do it.

    So to make the story short or the post rather,

    Yes im currently residing here in Cebu and NO – I do not own the cafe. Im a part time barista and even I cant call myself a barista because all I know is Im working in that cafe because Im enjoying it. Im the Tagalog barista at the cafe who makes “no-latte-art” cappuccinos and the best toasties (as per myself) who requires the local customers to talk to me in Tagalog. If I can only trade my full time job for it, I will in a heartbeat. Pero we have bills to pay ika nga.

    I do not have the 9-5 office work but I have the 9pm to 7am home-based work which I can do anywhere. So technically its not home-based hahaha

    I only have 5 hours of sleep most days, not that Im complaining but Im tired. There are days where I wish I can only sleep and shut everything down. I have days where I dont even have the energy to leave my bed but most of the time I push myself to go out for the sake of being normal.

    I haven’t look myself in the mirror for a long time, by look I mean stare. Stare until make myself cry by realizing after 28 years its still me. The boring me. Even haircuts, new clothes and that awkward smile didnt help. Nothing new.

    I just want everything to be on paused right now. Its gonna be 2020 soon, the holidays are here and I think its my first time to spend Christmas and New Year away from home. But if anyone is willing to sponsor my tickets hahaha. I still dont know if I want to go home. Where is home tho? Haha

    So yeah, thats my life update. Thank you if you are still reading up to this part. And yes im not ok but i will be. Hopefully.

  • LIFE UPDATE: Endings Are Really Beginnings

    LIFE UPDATE: Endings Are Really Beginnings

    Day 194 of 365

    Its been ages since my last blog post, I didn’t realized sooner that I need one until today. What can I say? well its been a blast, I was MIA for months due to many reasons. Mostly valid reasons but really I’m just lazy to post. Okay so here we go, hayyyy too many stories to tell but I’ll try my best and try to keep up with me please haha.

    You know that very cliche saying that endings are just beginnings, well they are. These past months, a lot of things ended for me but at the same time new things arises and saved me (I guess).  I ended a 5 year relationship with my ex, I quit my 9-5 job, I applied for the thing I always afraid to try (which I’m not gonna tell what exactly.) and my phone decided to swim in the toilet.

    Yes I ended my 5 year relationship, I think I have to say that always to let it sink in to me. Not that I want her back or anything Its just that, thats 5 years of my life, I didn’t just throw that away, It will always be in my memory and I didn’t regret anything about it and if theres anything that is regrettable is how I ended it but hey? what is done is done right? She may not forgive me for the things I have done but she will always be apart of me.

    Next, I quit my 9-5 job. Yes I did. Sort of. Don’t want to elaborate what really happen but I am now a full time freelancer, a work from home employee in short I do not really have a job and I’m a bummer.

    The third one is me applying to the one thing I am avoiding for years. But hey I got one now. You still don’t have a clue huh? Its very personal so maybe next time hahaha

    Lastly, and sadly. I have no phone at the moment. I drop it on the toilet. YAY ME!

    I am disconnected to social media and everything for almost 2 months now. Not really disconnected because I go online from time to time for work and important stuff. But still I miss being online 24/7 browsing  twitter with nonsense posts haha.

    This post is too long already so bye.

    PS: No latest picture.